sadness

dearest whoever reads me,

I missed my boyfriend. technically, my EX-boyfriend. I've been broken up with him since last year because i had the feelings that he does not love me anymore. I still puzzled with all those riddles he left me. he said he loved me, serious about me and all. but why does he keeping all those secrets from me? he went out with a girl, and didnt tell me. i wouldnt be mad if he just tell me the truth. secondly, he didnt even share with me his problems. maybe its because he's a guy. but what i do not get is why he did not even told me that he apply for what university. the day that he enter the university also he did not told me. i just know it from a friend of mine. it is sad to know that the guy that used to love you does not even care enough to share everything with you. its like he did not even want this FUCKING RELATIONSHIP! I am really upsets with him went he ignore me for the whole spm's holiday. and the worst part was, he did not even care to tell me that HE APPLY FOR THAT FUCKING KMKN. and im sitting here, crying, typing all these shits because i missed him so much! so DAMN MUCH! and he didnt even care. i thot that i was enaf! HE DOESNT EVEN APPRECIATE ME. he hates me. i missed him so much. it is harder than it looks to get over someone. and now, he is successfully gets whatever he wants. and he didnt even care enough to share it with me. its hard to see that someone you love is better off without you. maybe he is better off without me. im just this stupid girl who falls in love with the wrong person.my family was right all along, he;s just playing, goofing off with my heart. i never felt this vulnerable before.he does'nt even care.

p/s: i wish that i have never fall for him in the first place. im sick and tired of crying every single day.

 

Awal Muharam eh?

dear readers,

Yeay!!! its awal Muharam. aren't you excited? cause i am! there are so many things that I wanna do for this new year. but last night I've started with painting. thats right, I'm trying to paint what I wanna do went I grow up.so, here are some pic of me painting. Its not that preety, but it was enough to satisfied me.


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                                                                                                                            Maryam Khadijah

what a weekend.

dear readers,

what a tiring weekend i'd just experienced.  I went to Melaka city with some friends and it was amazing. we went to the museum of enduring beauty. experiencing some world history. god, it was amazing!!!! you guys should visit Melaka often to feel deeper about Malaysia's history. :)
I really would like to share you guys some of my amazing pics, but the internet connection over here are having some problems. so, later then.

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what a sleepover :)

dearest reader,

I'm just having the most amazing night with my little sister. We were watching a cartoon entitled 'despicable me'. we had a great laugh thou. I'm recommended you guys out there to watch it. It was cool and fun. hope you'll have a great laugh like I did as well. Night there :)

                                                                                                                                  Two-sided,
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No man is an island.

dearest reader,

friends come and go, so just try to be strong... I'd been transfer to many schools and changing my zip codes few times. but where ever I go, I'll try hard to stay connect with all my friends. 

Now :)

Back then <3



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that is so Sunday.

dearest reader,

How can I even start? I mean, i'm new here. you do know how it feels when you are around something new. Its the thing you called 'nervous'.LOL. Enough with that. I guess. Lets see, I'd woke up around 10 a.m and right a way took my bath.Then I ate a half plate full of fried rice that my mom cooked and a glass full of orange juice. Well, you can say my life is typical because it is. Then i do the teen stuff that you guys out there usually does. You know, the one with watching TV, surfing internet and all those boring stuff.

It was still boring until my mom called me to talk about something. Mom said that dad have some work to do. So i have to go back to college as early as Monday morning. GOD! that was totally freaking me out! I mean, I'm not done yet with my math's assignment and I'm pretty sure that I am not ready for this type of 'going back early' to boredome!

Anyways, life have to sides right??? so, don't just look on the dark side, look at the bright side.

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                                                                                                                                    Maryamkhadijah